Before my book was published last October I spent a good part of my days writing (exactly what you would expect from an aspiring writer) It was great because I could stretch my imagination, create characters and mould their lives, which then inspired me to develop the process further, build relationships, assign personality traits and generally……have fun by my own rules in the world I designed.
This was great fun, and it gave me that tingle of excitement which encouraged me to continue on a daily basis……until the inevitable happened, and as the last chapter concluded there was a feeling of loss, a conclusion to my fun. My characters had finally served their purpose and it was time to let them meet the world (hopefully)
Then a new kind of excitement came along in the form of the finished product, brilliant, but as a self-published author little did I realise how my days would now be taken up.
I still have many ideas racing around inside my head and I long to once again take the ‘Storyteller’s’ chair, return to my desk and create anew, to feel that tingle once more…but I can’t.
Why? well because if I want the world to meet Freddie and the lovely Lisa then I have to market the product. (It’s like the old joke about Dennis Waterman….write the theme tune, sing the theme tune) So I spend my day trawling Goodreads, Authinomy, Booklife, etc…….writing reviews for other fellow dreamers in the forlorn hope they may do the same for me.
And I have to ask myself……what am I doing?
I’m in a quandary because I want to write more, create more, it’s what I enjoy doing. But what’s the point if my efforts won’t be appreciated by others. I have to admit it’s all a little soul destroying but what choice do I have?
Oh well…….tomorrow……maybe……just maybe 🙂
I would like to take this opportunity to thank all those who have supported, followed, liked or commented on my posts over the last year, it really is appreciated.
The launch of my first book ‘The Other Side of Me’ happened in October and It was a very exciting time, especially holding the very first copy which is something I’ll never forget. Although initially sales were quite slow I’m not disheartened and I’m feeling really positive for the coming year.
So a Happy New Year to you all, my wish is for everyone to achieve their own personal dream, big or small, and just remember……every day can be a new day with a fresh start and renewed hope, don’t waste a single one of them 🙂
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10.15 pm – Even though it was quite late by the time Freddie got back to the Dog he was hoping his friend would still be there waiting for him.
“She’s not been in at all tonight Freddie.” John picked a clean glass off the rack. “Stopping for a drink?”
“No thanks, bit strapped for cash tonight.”
“Is everything alright Freddie?” John sounded genuinely concerned.
“I think so. Things are just mixed up in my head at the moment, that’s all.”
As Freddie turned to leave John called him back.
“Isn’t it strange,” he said, “That when you get up in the morning some things seem very simple, but as soon as you get into bed they become so complicated it ruins the rest of your day.” He put a pint of bitter down on the counter. “There’s a lesson there for everyone I think, and this one’s on the house.”
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“We’ve been following all the usual tried and tested advice given by the ‘how to get pregnant’ experts and magazine gurus and she’s always keen to try all the different ideas she’s read about.”
“Lisa reads a lot by the sound of it.”
“To be fair doc it’s her job, as is putting me through the torture of cold baths, loose underwear and high fibre diets. Three items that definitely never made it onto Julie Andrews list of favourite things. But then neither did men, sex or chocolate so go figure.”
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The truth was this was a ‘want it all now’ generation and relationships were as disposable as the latest video game. As soon as something better and faster with more features became available the boys just had to have it, and once the quest for the hidden treasure was completed they usually lost interest.
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The Other Side of Me
Dreams hide in the shadows all unspoken through fear,
And I dare not to tell you just in case you don’t hear.
So afraid of rejection and the pain of before,
Here concealed in the darkness will love pass by my door?
And then you look at me
The darkness disappears, I long to be
That special someone you hope to see
And I pray that there’s another side……..
I know if you’ll be mine
Forever in my heart a light will shine
To show the way, tomorrow we’ll define
As you lead me to the other side…..of me.
But how do I tell her and just what should I say?
She may not feel the same as I do.
Then she’ll think that I’m foolish, it might push her away,
Then my pitiful life would be through
But then she smiles my way
With eyes so full of love that I must stay
To be with her for more than just this day,
There just has to be another side…..of me.
And when you look at me
I hope you’ll see the one you love, and we
Will always be together endlessly,
And there can be another side……
Please say you’ll be right here
To hold my hand and chase away this fear.
My every dream becoming crystal clear,
As you open up the other side….
I know that there’s another side….
Please God she sees the other side…..of me.